17.10.11

Fucking for Fame...

Here is an issue that seems to pop up every once in a while in association with myself. I respect my fans + friends enough to be open + honest so I am finally going to address this. Hopefully this will finally put the issue to bed... no pun intended. It seems as though most of you know I have been romantically linked to a few well known men. I am not going to confirm or deny anyone specific, that is not the point of this post. As a female in the entertainment industry, I suppose it is almost inevitable that you will be accused of canoodling with certain powerful people for a more lucrative position, or opportunity within the industry. I suppose it is a right of passage + in that way I am flattered that people are even talking about me at all. Usually, I let people believe what they want to but as a strong, willful, driven, + ass-bustingly, hardworking woman, I want to make my point absolutely clear. I have worked myself to the edge of sanity on multiple occasions to be able to do what I love. I have gone without sufficient sleep, or food, stayed in what most would consider "un-inhabitable" conditions, put my safety at risk many times, performed for free even when I have been poor, all for the sake of my art. I would die for it. I would rather die than live anything other than for my artisitic dreams + vision. No one else could do this for me. Anyone in the industry knows that the concept of fucking for fame is pretty ridiculous anyway. If only it were that easy... I mean really! It comes with the territory that many of the men I have dated are also in the entertainment industry, I suppose I can relate to a certain lifestyle more similar to my own. There is obviously nothing I can do to prove this other than say with the integrity of my character that I would never be interested in someone because of what they could possibly do for my career. I am far too emotionally driven for that. One of the men in question did give me a wonderful opportunity, I should add that he was the only one to do so. I took it of course + I am forever grateful to him for believing in me. I genuinely loved + still love him, I would never have faked that for anything. Let me repeat that although I have dated some well known men, only one has ever helped with a career opportunity. I am a self-taught, self-created, one woman show + force of nature. Do not underestimate what sheer force of will can do. My mind is far more powerful than my vagina. XOMH