The Pain Project

Dearest Daemons,

This year has been a test of my strength + a lesson in whats important. I have always put my career before everything in my life. If I needed to do something often the people I love have suffered for it. In the beginning sometimes financially, now usually by taking the brunt of my stress, dealing with my absence, + feeling neglected. I feel like this might be why the chips have fallen in this particular fashion most recently.
I have suffered from severe depression since the age of 11 or 12. Soon followed by a diagnosis with panic disorder, later on generalized anxiety, + social anxiety. I experienced a 6 month long complete mental breakdown in 2008-2009 which left me more fragile than ever. Personally, I believe my soul is uncomfortable in a human body existing in this reality + therefore manifests in these types of human "diagnosis". I usually have a very clear winter/summer cycle. Winter I'm in full swing horror + summer I can get out + experience life again. This didn't happen this summer. I kept waiting for the weight to lift but summer grew warmer + I still had very little desire to do anything. I began to spiral downward. Everything that reminded me of being happy made me cry. I saw pictures of the ocean + it lead my to tears everytime. I thought a trip to Los Angeles would lift me up, but it only made things worse. It was a particularly disastrous trip ending a few friendships, physically being ill + took a toll on much more.
Now it's in the depths of winter + I'm still picking up the pieces. My life is not always how it looks in the public eye. I wanted to make this confession as a catharsis to myself but also maybe to help others. I am honest above all things + I never want to lie to my beautiful, supportive deamons + thats what I felt I was doing for a long time.
The Pain Project came as a result of all this. It was a truth I wanted to share. To show that no matter how successful, beautiful, loved, you are, things aren't always that perfect on the inside. My mental illness or spiritual illness has majorly impacted my career as well. I have not been performing because I haven't had the motivation to keep up all my business relationships, try to forge new ones, nor practice my craft.
I want to let you all know that your messages + extreme outpouring of support in response to the release of The Pain Project has meant more to me than any of you will ever know. Here are some beautiful quotes from responses:

"such a beautiful powerful woman should not be so sad but even in sadness you are beautiful"

"to see you make the best of bad is inspiring and probably the most creative project I've seen"

"Sharing this side of yourself shows how brave you really are"

"This is beautiful. As someone who deals with such illnesses I can't even imagine showing the world what I am at my weakest point."

And this particular quote came from a fellow Left Hand Path yogin who I feel understands the why of my illness more than anyone ever has from this quote:

"Goddess incarnate to men ov the world...
Every thing about a geisha life is life about art.
To be the absolute expression of feminine beauty.
To embrace it where ever it is, to breath it, speak it.
Leaving little trails and impressions on everyone that comes in contact
life is art at all costs.
When removed from the willow world the geisha is not understood not appreciated and seemingly useless to the the machine ov society.
When not in the role ov geisha, the geisha is a not a cog in the machine.
No longer a cog,  the artist is devoured by the machine ov society.
For the geisha to consider leaving the willow world, dealing with the civilians, as most would, seems an impossible task, that's because it is.
When every cell ov her being has been cultivated over the life time as art, as life continues, the geisha will continue...until death."
- Jenna Jyoti 

I have kept the quotes, except for the last + most meaningful, anonymous for obvious reasons. Here is my original statement from The Pain Project:

Dearest Daemons,

First of all I want to thank you all for being so supportive, loving + inspirational. I have been hiding a dark secret for sometime that I feel it is time to share, I suffer from severe clinical depression, a serious mental illness most people do not understand. I prefer to call it my spiritual illness because I feel like the intense energy of my soul has spent so much time in other dimensional realities that this manifestation on the earthly plain is difficult to cope with. The entire world seems built upside down. I have spent most of the past 6 months in bed or in meditation trying to figure out how to exist here, how to triumph, how to just be in a world + society that is built for people who can fit a mold. I simply not caple of degrading my being to say work a 9-5 job, enjoy going to bars + nightclubs, live in anything less than pure beauty. I am not saying that those of you functioning have degraded yourselves in anyway, I can respect people who can be happy fitting into a society built on money + honouring academia over art + spirituality. I just simply am not able to. I would rather pass out of this third dimensional reality than give up on my dream + live a "normal" life. 

I was having a particularly dark moment + talking to my partner + best friend, Michael Scorpio about how I wish he was in town more often so he could somehow document the tragedy + this + we could make something beautiful out of it but I can never predict when its going to hit hard. So in a particularly dark moment not one that is so uncommon, armed with nothing but my pain + my iphone I began snapping photos of one of these most painful moments I go through somewhat regularly in an attempt to show a vulnerability. To be the most romantic stories are always one with elements of tragedy + pain + that makes the beautiful moments that much more beautiful. So I present to you something that takes great courage for me to publish, The Pain Project:

For the rest of the images please visit my official website post:

http://madeleine-horn.com/news-and-events/the-pain-project

Thank you all for your ongoing support. It does help to know you are all around me, lifting me up. I believe I am getting better. I may never be free of this completely but any small moment of freedom from it is a blessing.

Infernally,

Miss Horn

Horn sigil scarification exclusive.

Dearest daemons,

  I have received several messages regarding the new scar that many of you noticed in this live photo from my recent performance at The Edmonton Tattoo & Arts Festival 2013.

photo by Anthony Black

  I had my sigil/logo/trademark symbol scarred into my sternum area mid April by Russ Foxx. I had Michael Scorpio photograph the entire thing. The photos had not been released because they had been submitted to several magazines with several less than favorable offers. These photos are so beautiful + I really wanted them to be featured in a magazine. I got several offers but these photos deserved a cover + full feature, anything less would not be acceptable nor honor the team. After careful contemplation I feel it only appropriate for me to release this documentation of a life changing event, myself. 

  It was a very busy day, we knew we wanted to shoot the wound fresh, so I had to be glammed up before my appointment, then I had my friends + recent co-collaborators, 3 Inches of Blood, in town playing a show so I knew directly after the shoot I'd have to head straight to the show. 

  I was fairly confident I would be able to handle the pain due to my mental state + my recent studies on the gateway of pain + meditation on the subject. Russ placed the stencil + it was dead center perfect the first try. I laid down, we had some music playing, but I could never tell you what it was now. At this point my nerves started to kick in. I could feel the slight tingle of fear + anticipation from my forehead down into my toes. 

  Russ started to make the first cut + I was fine. Both Russ + Michael looked at me with surprise + announced I was not bleeding... at all. I was afraid this would happen. I wanted it to bleed for the photos. I wanted it to drip down + add vibrant colour to the images but no such luck. /This is a strange phenomena I have discovered with certain people who have something in common that I wont get into right now. I barely bled. As it went on it slowly got more painful, or maybe it didn't but my tolerance + strength slowly drained. I began to twitch + tear up. Eventually I would be full blown shaking with tears streaming down my face. 

the first cut by Russ Foxx photo by Michael Scorpio

Surgical precision by Russ Foxx photo by Michael Scorpio

Detailing by Russ Foxx photo by Michael Scorpio

  There is nothing quite like having a scalpel cut inside another cut with no freezing. It sets off all kinds of natural alarm defenses in the brain. I went into a dopey state. I felt like I was drunk. The chemicals my brain had released really were like nothing else I had experienced. The best way I can describe it is like somewhere in between being drunk + stoned only a little bit cleaner.

Entering the gateway of pain by Russ Foxx photo by Michael Scorpio

Trying to make the blood flow by Russ Foxx photo by Michael Scorpio

finished by Russ Foxx photo by Michael Scorpio

The money angle all photos by Michael Scorpio

When Russ finally gave me the word we were all done I breathed a sigh of relief + stood in front of the mirror. I was so happy + amazed with the precision. Michael had the lighting semi set already so I did some poses, we took some test shots, decided  on the lighting we likes + shot away. Soon after I got taped up + we all headed to the 3 Inches of Blood show. 

Madelina Horn + Russ Foxx photographed by Michael Scorpio

  

  It has been over a month now since it was done + it has healed beautifully. Keloiding only slightly + completely evenly. I am so happy with it. The only thing I had not considered was how painful overstretching the area would be after the fact. I waited almost a week after the procedure to resume aerial training + yoga practice. Backbends + any poses where my abdomen stretches extensively are still extremely painful. It feels as if the scar is ripping open again every time. I hope this stops soon but I have no idea how long that will take to subside.

  I would like to thank Russ Foxx for doing such a wonderful job + for being such a wonderful creative spirit in this world. Also, my partner, photographer, Michael Scorpio for his patience with my sometimes moody state during our shoots + somehow still making me laugh + look beautiful. Also special thanx to Crimson Empire in Edmonton for hosting this event. 

  I really hope you all find it as beautiful as I do. 

Sinfully,

Miss Horn

2012

I had a really fun, completely out of control, circus of a birthday party. I got to go to LA for a month. Performing the Albertabound Calgary tattoo convention + Laced Up by my love Sweet Carousel were so wonderful. Those are the only good things to come of 2012.

2012 was a struggle of a year with a lack of art, inspiration, love, wellbeing,... everything really. It was horrible I felt drained of my power for most of it. I'm ready to reclaim + dominate, so beware! I'm hungry for creations, travel, adventure, love, abundance!

That is a quick video from my birthday party. What a night! It's 2013 + I'm so excited for this year. Especially since it began with the much anticipated creation + release of my sigil(logo). 

So here we go BC, Mexico, Vegas, Hollywood + I can't wait to see what more! 

Here's to a magikal beginning!

Yours Infernally,

Miss Horn 

Beauty tips from Hell...

Dearest daemons,

This one is mostly for the girls although I know some glamourous boys as well who might appreciate a tip or two. I gets asked about my beauty routine all the time so I thought I would share some tips I swear by.
1. WATER; Obviously. I shouldn't have to tell you but 2 litres a day will keep your cells refreshed. If you get really ambitious up it to 4. The more water you consume, the less you retain.
2. Always wash off you makeup before you go to bed. I am guilty of the odd night partying later, crashing on a couch, + waking up with my full face on + that icky layer of grease. Avoid this as much as possible, your body is extra vulnerable during sleep + more likely to absorb the toxins sitting on the surface.
3. Alcohol, Cigarettes, + Sugar are your skin's worst enemy. They all promote inflammation which causes tiny blemishes that may have healed to flare up + erupt into monstrosities, forget if you have skin conditions such as rosacea or psoriasis, or stomach ulcers. All things in moderation, try not to worry if you are indulging. Your body's immune system can counter act the odd party if it's kept strong + healthy the vast majority of the time + thoughts have frequency so don't put worrisome thoughts out when you should be enjoying your naughty indulgence. If it makes you feel better, counter act your bad girl ways the day after by loading up on ginger, a natural anti inflammatory.
4. Treat your skin to a nice ancient beauty potion once a week. The recipe as follows:
1 part organic lemon juice
1 part organic apple cider vinegar
1 part unpasteurized organic honey
1 part green tea powder
1 part fine ground oats (I put regular cooking oats in a coffee grinder until fine)

This is full of antixidants, antibacterials, skin lighteners, humectants, + antiinflammatories. You can also add some regular white sugar to make it a scrub. Usually what goes on your skin should be just as good for your insides, sugar is one of the few exceptions; bad for the inside but good for the outside!
5. I use bare minerals powder foundation but a lot of people want fuller coverage. For video + photoshoots I wear MAC liquid foundation mixed with my moisturizer, underneath my powder foundation. This acts as a base coat + primer. Always set your makeup with a translucent powder. I am a major advocate of highlighting. A lot of people ask how I get such a glow to my skin, I've never been one to like a matte finish. I use a shimmery nude eyeshadow usually to highlight my nose, cheekbones, chin + brow bones. This can add so much to people if done properly.
6. Exfoliate your entire body once a week, be careful w/ the delicate skin on your chest though. Even your armpits! Your skin with shed + regenerate new fresh skin faster.
7. Massage you scalp to stimulate blood flow + help your hair grow faster. Wash your hair as little as possible. Twice a week is too much for most people. Once a week is sufficient. This might be difficult at first because your oil glands are over active from over stripping your skin constantly but after the first month your scalp will adapt + begin to secrete much less sebum. Condition your ends every time you shower.
8. Do yoga or at least stretch! Creating space within the body reflects in creating freedom in your life. Also, the more motion + control you have over your body the sexier you will feel. If you cannot touch your toes you have serious work to do!
9. Less is more when it comes to showing skin. That may sound strange coming from a stripper but if in doubt show less. There is nothing worse than a girl who looks cheap. Choose your best asset + showcase it. Don't wear a tube top w/ booty shorts unless you are Pamela Anderson, at a fetish party, or onstage. That being said I am all for experiementing with fashion. I would rather see more people dressed as the crazy man downtown who wears thongs over spandex, than the average Walmart goer in sweatpants + a tshirt. Put your personality out there, just be aware of your body type + stick with what flatters.

A few things, I thought could help!

I love you daemons!

Infernally,

Miss Horn

The dark...

One thing I can take from the experience of living with severe depression is that there are very few things that frighten me nowadays. I have been suicidal + as a result I no longer fear death. I know death is always an option therefore the phobias I once had about alien abduction + apocalyptic scenarios  no longer paralyze me. I try to learn something from every situation in life no matter how dark it may be. Find the beauty.

Just because I'm the Devil doesn't mean I'm easy.

Easy can be used in a variety of ways to describe a person; easy-going, easy to please, or just plain easy. None of these, in which, describe me. I have high standards, am high-strung, and (admittedly) high-maintenance. So why is it that men seem to think they can make a few sexual comments + get in my panties? To a certain extent I can only expect so much from a general population who only know me as being in little or no clothing. I am not concerned with comments about my T + A on images online, in fact I appreciate them in their own way. However, in person, being serious, such remarks are far less charming. Why would any man think a woman who puts so much effort + hard work into herself, is easy?
I was seeing someone last year briefly + we had a steamy encounter, that I stopped early because I was uncomfortable sleeping with someone at that point in the courtship process. He fired at me calling me a christian + asking how could I be such a "prude" when I follow the path of the Devil. This is not the first time this type of argument has come up for me. Before I get into why my values fit into my belief system let me just save some of you men some time + tell you that you can not argue a woman into bed. You're only decreasing you chances of ever getting there by trying. Now, I am a satanist, which means I am Satan. I strive to be great, the best, treat my body as the dark temple it is, + hold myself to the highest standards. That being said, why would I expect anything less than this in a mate? Yes, I am hedonistic + indulgent but not in any ways that are self destructive because that would be weak + weakness is the ultimate Satanic "sin." Should I not expect a man to show that he is evolved + intelligent enough to hold a conversation with me, instead of just making some obvious remark about my tits? Should I not guage his reaction in a variety of environments + situations to make sure we will get along? Should I not expect to be respected + worshiped in the same way I do myself, by a potential mate?
I find men to respond better to simple instructions. Here are some simple dating rules when pursuing a woman:
- It's okay to talk about sex after you become comfortable with a woman in conversation but don't reference sex as actually happenning between the two of you. You shouldn't ask personal questions about what a woman likes in bed, nor suggest what you're "good" at sexually, nor speak explicitly sexual to her in any way until you're already in bed together.
- It's okay to touch a woman, if you're getting flirtatious signals from her, but never grab anywhere that might get you slapped until she tells you too. Nothing smells of more desperation than a man slapping a woman's ass or asking to see her boobs when she's hasn't even noticed you yet. This is not a way to get noticed either, you might end up getting slapped, or punched.
- Never ask or tell a woman you want to have sex with her until you already have. Although you may think you're portraying confidence, you're actually coming off as a horny douchebag. No woman wants to feel like she's an "option." She wants to feel like she's the only one in the room you can see.
- Be a gentleman. Chivalry is alive + kicking in some men. Those men are your competition. Opening a door for a woman is much more charming that drunkenly talking about her ass in front of her.
Now, there are many woman of our generation that are easy. There's nothing wrong with that. If someone wants to indulge in pleasure + has no need for a more fulfilling connection to get it, than I support it completely. I am not one of those woman. I am a prize + if you want to win, you have to prove you're worthy + go through the obstacles to prove it. These tips I've stated will make you more appealing to either type of woman. Never assume what type of woman someone is by their style of clothing, choice of career, spirituality, etc. Just approach them all as if they're ladies, queens, goddesses. If you are a king you should be happy to work for a woman worthy of sharing your crown.

Infernally,

Miss Horn

2011

My lovely daemons,

First of all thank you for supporting + helping spread the gospel of glamour. Our legion has become a wonderful family + none of what I have accomplished would be possible without you. The bigger our legion grows the bigger + better my life becomes. This past year has been such an amazing rollercoaster ride + the loops keep getting bigger so I can't wait to see what 2012 will behold! 2011 I travelled so much spending time in Norway, Sweden, Denmark, Montreal, Calgary, Niagara Falls, New York, Atlanta, Las Vegas. I was able to work with + for some amazing people including Chrome Division, Dimmu Borgir, Melt, Komor Kommando, Burn Bitch Burn, Louie Fleischauer of AMF Korsets, Sweet Carousel, Deviant Events, Torture Garden, Secretroom, Michael Maggot of MaggotFilms, Patric Ullaeus of Revolver Studios, Radiant Inc, Helsing Photo, Robert Matta of VonGutenberg, + of course my partner in crime, Michael Scorpio. This year, I have lived in 3 different countries, become vegan, fallen in love, had my heart broken, appeared in at least 6 different publications, starred in a horror film, performed an opening spot for Judas Priest, learned to spit fire, began my true devotion to yoga, + so much more. I'm sure I am forgetting a lot but as you can tell it has been quite the year.
Every year things seem to get more + more amazing. I am so excited to journey into 2012! I am already working on a new show, amoung other things. I can't wait to give you even more! I love you so much you can't even imagine. I hope we all experience our best year yet + help each other do it!

Love is the Law.

Infernally,

Miss Horn

The Rear...

I am too skinny when I train + too fat when I don't. I had a few "fat ass" comments on recent pictures I posted but I will not be ashamed. Yes, I have wide hips + a big butt even when I'm thin. I will not hide. Here it is in all its glory...

Infernally,

Miss Horn

Inspired

So I am currently in the midst of creating a new show to unveil. The show will be revealed at a TBA performance in February in my hometown of Edmonton, AB. I thought I would let you in on the creative process of my performances a little bit. I like to make inspiration boards + I recently joined a site that lets me do it online. I'm excited to share with you these inspiration boards that I have started to build that reflect a visual inspiration for 2 new shows + a few other things that are just me.
I'm sure you'll see a whole new angel to my art from these.

http://pinterest.com/MissHorn 

Infernally,

Miss Horn

Torture Garden Montreal

Hello beautiful deamons + deamonesses, 
I thought I would tell you all about my new show debuted at Torture Garden Montreal on November 26th, 2011. My show of course starts out with a stage covered in egg, salt, + oil so that when I enter onto it wearing towering 7 inch heels I am bound to be slipping + sliding. Once I make my wobbly entrance smoking a cigarette, I put it out perfectly on my tongue... this part of the show stood alone. So first thing first, to strip off my corset, of course I wore my most difficult corset to get in + out of ensuring that I would get stuck + need my lovely assistant, Lylia, to pop my out of it. Next to light my torches to begin the fire segment. My fuel conveniently gets switched with water to continue with the theme of the show. With my torches thoroughly soaked in water + not able to light, I continue dancing clumsily around the lubed stage. A wonderful onlooker tries to come to my aid + pours alcohol over the torches in an attempt to save me. The already water logged torches hold a dull flame at best but when I grab my other fuel to attempt a spit I take a swig of the toxic substance + appropriately the torch goes out right before I can spit. Now I have stage assistants + managers scrambling to relight my torches while I wait + let the poisonous fuel sit + absorb into my mouth. All part of the show of course. In a last gasp the torch gets lit again + I finish the show by spitting a few fireballs. I take a bow + exit the stage. Burlesque originated with comedy after all.

Satire aside, I do apologize to fans + attendees of TGM that I could not perform a real show for you. I had fun regardless. I thank the wonderful promoters + TG London staff for having me. It was a wonderful weekend. I love Montreal + every time I leave I miss it more than the last. 
 In keeping with the theme of the trip I was in Niagara Falls for a few days after Montreal on my way to Orlando. Upon crossing the border on my way to Buffalo-Niagara Airport, the officers at border patrol interrogated me, ripped my luggage apart, yelled at me, finger printed + photographed me. They proceeded to turn me away because with so much recent travel back + forth from Canada to the USA on my record, as a freelance artist I have "loose ties" to Canada, so even vacation travel is "too suspicious". I hope to get this resolved soon + hopefully resume my trip to Orlando + beyond. For now I am working on a new stage show with my close friend + favorite designer, Elise of Sweet Carousel Corsetry. 
 Thank you for your continued support. I love you deamons! 
 Infernally,
 Miss Horn

Fucking for Fame...

Here is an issue that seems to pop up every once in a while in association with myself. I respect my fans + friends enough to be open + honest so I am finally going to address this. Hopefully this will finally put the issue to bed... no pun intended. It seems as though most of you know I have been romantically linked to a few well known men. I am not going to confirm or deny anyone specific, that is not the point of this post. As a female in the entertainment industry, I suppose it is almost inevitable that you will be accused of canoodling with certain powerful people for a more lucrative position, or opportunity within the industry. I suppose it is a right of passage + in that way I am flattered that people are even talking about me at all. Usually, I let people believe what they want to but as a strong, willful, driven, + ass-bustingly, hardworking woman, I want to make my point absolutely clear. I have worked myself to the edge of sanity on multiple occasions to be able to do what I love. I have gone without sufficient sleep, or food, stayed in what most would consider "un-inhabitable" conditions, put my safety at risk many times, performed for free even when I have been poor, all for the sake of my art. I would die for it. I would rather die than live anything other than for my artisitic dreams + vision. No one else could do this for me. Anyone in the industry knows that the concept of fucking for fame is pretty ridiculous anyway. If only it were that easy... I mean really! It comes with the territory that many of the men I have dated are also in the entertainment industry, I suppose I can relate to a certain lifestyle more similar to my own. There is obviously nothing I can do to prove this other than say with the integrity of my character that I would never be interested in someone because of what they could possibly do for my career. I am far too emotionally driven for that. One of the men in question did give me a wonderful opportunity, I should add that he was the only one to do so. I took it of course + I am forever grateful to him for believing in me. I genuinely loved + still love him, I would never have faked that for anything. Let me repeat that although I have dated some well known men, only one has ever helped with a career opportunity. I am a self-taught, self-created, one woman show + force of nature. Do not underestimate what sheer force of will can do. My mind is far more powerful than my vagina. XOMH

Fake blood = Fake art

Dearest daemons...

So I recently did my first photoshoot with fake blood. This experience has lead me to explain why it will be the only one ever. It is no secret that I am a blood fetishist + completely fascinated with all aspects of the fluid. I am also a fairly vocal vegan. All those things aside, I am an artist. I am truely passionate about modelling + performing. I like to make modelling like a performance that gets captured in stills. I need to feel the energy of the shoot whether it's a sexual, cutesy, serious, horror, haute, whatever the theme, I need to feel it. Now I did not feel anything but sticky + uncomfortable using fake blood. To be quite honest, I did not feel proud of the work after I had done it, I felt ashamed. It was fake. I started thinking about this + soon after was contact for potential hire in another shoot requiring blood. I already knew I would not do it. This is where you're going to want to call me a hypocrite + burn me at the stake. I suggested we use real blood. Since buying human blood is illegal, the only option is animal blood. I know anyone reading this is scratching their head right now, considering all my work to support animal rights. I think it's aweful too but remember, I am an artist. In order for me to feel something it has to be real, there has to be energy. So I proposed this new photographer buy blood + donate the same amount of money spent on the blood to a charity that supports animals in some way. I know I am a hypocrite. I know a donation does not make the support of animal slaughter, however small, ok. The only thing I can say is that I would use human blood everytime, if I had the choice, even if humans were being slaughtered the way animals are. It's a terrible world we live in, equally to all it beauty.

I hope none of you lose your respect for my work. I appreciate your unwaivering support so far! I would not be able to live my dream if it wasn't for my amazing deamons. Thank you for your understanding!

All heavy controversy aside, here are the images from the shoot:

*some photos were deleted before I could share this blog. I have uploaded the rest under the same title as the blog here:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MadelinaHorn

You can find more of Chris' work on MM:
http://www.modelmayhem.com/1582158

Norway pt II

Dearest daemons...

I'm sorry it has taken me so long to post here but I will fill you all in on my latest Scandinavian adventure to make up for it.
I spent all of June in beautiful Norway. I decided it was time to take a vacation + spend time with someone special to me. I arrived on a Thursday + was up + promptly ready first thing on Friday to head downtown Oslo for the Chrome Division 3rd Round Knockout release (for those of you who haven't been in the loop, I am on the cover). As with my last experience with these boys, I was greeted with open arms + open bottles. Cindy, one of the lovely Chrome Division girlfriends, was kind enough to prepare daquiries for us + they certainly did not last long. Delicious.

I was surprised to notice that the sun never really sets in Oslo's summers. It goes almost dark but just when you think it is finally set its rising again. I don't remember much from leaving Club John Dee's to arriving home, except that I required assistance removing my footwear...

The next few weeks were up + down. Spending 24hrs a day with the same person for a month takes its toll, no matter how much the two care about each other. Another challenge I had to face was sticking to my vegan diet. I tried my best but it was hard enough just being vegetarian. It seems I truly was in the land of the vikings where meat is the center of everything. The one thing I missed most about home besides my baby kitties, was my comfort foods. I ended up eating lots of desserts because most of the time that was the only thing vegetarian on the menu. I had plenty of lovely alcohol while I was in Scandinavia though. One night we even broke open the last bottle of limited edition Dimmu Borgir wine. It was probably the best red wine I have ever had. Not to mention how priveledged I felt to be able to share this rare wine that metal fans everywhere would have loved a taste of. Dare I say the Dimmu Borgir wine was actually better than the Wongraven (Satyricon) wine.
Before long I was off to Copenhagen to perform as a guest with my Swedish girls in Burn Bitch Burn for Copenhell. I arrived in Denmark at 730am! Disgustingly early. I was lucky enough to be checked into my room right away though.


I slept + awoke a few hrs later to the arrival of Sarah + My. It was my first time meeting My, but had already worked with Sarah on the Chrome Division (Ghost Rider in the Sky) video. We got ready + made our way down to the festival grounds. There was a bit of confusion + it turned out they didn't have a slot for us on the stage schedule so they had to reorganize some things + thanks to our lovely tour manager, Viktor, we got everything worked out. We got the best spot on the bill! We went on the second stage right after Deicide + before Judas Priest.

It was my first time sharing the stage with other performers. It wasn't my typical show but I had so much fun, I would do it again in a heartbeat.


I was exhausted after our show. I watched half of Priest's show but had just seen them in Oslo days before. Priest twice in one week! I slept good that night. The next day we arrived at the grounds around 6pm + I went straight for the catering. I didn't mention that the food backstage was to die for! After barely eating for weeks due to lack of options I finally had fresh raw salad bar, roasted potatoes, steamed veggies, chocolate soy milk, rhubarb cake, strawberries, assortments of tea, coffee, honey, raw sugar... yum! I was in heaven + ate way too much both days. Mayhem played the second day + I had never seen them before. It was a bit of a milestone moment for me considering I credit them for my introduction to metal at the tender age of twelve. I got to see the show from the comfort of right on the stage. It was breathtaking!

Later on after more food, me + the girls went to watch Morbid Angel's set, from the stage again! Which is luxury enough but I think I appreciate it even more than the average show goer because of my severe loathe for moshpits. They have quite the live sound! Our show was cancelled on day two due to the scheduling problems but I didn't mind at all. We had free food, endless free vodka, ciders, etc, + the comfort of our own cozy dressing room the escape to if we needed a quick break. It turned into a bit of a hall party near the end.

All of the bands + us were partying in each others dressing rooms with all the doors open down the hallway. Kind of like a big dorm party for metalheads.

They finally kicked us all out to start shutting down the grounds + we were shuttled back to the hotel to freshen up. We regrouped + walked to a bar called The Rock where I was promptly greated by the great Attila of Mayhem + who I beleive was the owner (but am still unsure) who asked what I wanted to drink + I said tequila so she gave me an entire bottle + we all did some strange shot. I still don't know what that shot was but it was painful. We had the VIP section for all of us Copenhell people. It was one of the best nights of my life. Hellhammer + I armwrestled but I lost... It must have been the tequila. hehe.

We partied at that club until 7am. I went back to the hotel w/ some of the guys + we continued to party as we all still had an abundance of alcohol left from the festival.

I went back to my room + attempted to get some sleep but I was still a little tipsy so I got up + when I looked down the hallway I was not the only one still awake so I went with some of the boys down for breakfast. after some food I fell fast asleep. My girls woke me up to say goodbye + I stayed in bed + booked a late checkout so I could get my beauty sleep. I awoke in the afternoon packed + headed to the airport where I was greeted with Starbucks! How I had missed this. There are no Starbucks in Norway FYI. I arrived back in Oslo in the late afternoon + felt like I was home again. I missed my Norwegian bed, for the few days I was away.
I spent the last few days in Norway. Relaxing + enjoying the company I had. On my last day I was taken out for a lovely dinner at a beautiful restaurant overlooking the city of Oslo. The view was breathtaking as was the food + wine.

The flight home felt much longer than the way there. My heart still aches to be back there...
Since I have been back home I have been catching up of business. My new website is up as I'm sure most of you know. I've been featured in Metal Hammer, Absolutely Underground, + SMN magazines this month. I have been approached by a publisher to release a book of my work, which I am currently working on. I am also planning some upcoming shows. Possibly some in Edmonton in September, Calgary October, the east in November, + a possible mini tour sometime late 2011 or 2012. I have been putting more attention into my passion for yoga. Practicing through instructed classes 6 days a week.



Love is the Law.

Forever,

Miss Horn

Chrome Division feat. Madelina Horn new videos

Chrome Division released this video on Canada Day for the Canadian star of the video, Me!

My June blog will follow soon...

XOMH

Behind the Scenes: Chrome Division + Miss Horn

I left my heart in Norway...

My dear demons...

I have recently returned from a much anticipated journey to Norway + Sweden. I was flown in to star in two music videos for epic rock n roll heathens, Chrome Division. I was very lucky to have had a chance meeting with Mr. Shagrath last year. He recognized my talent + asked me to be involved earlier this year. After arriving in Oslo, without my luggage, I was exhausted but beyond exstatic to be there. Before I knew it, it was time to leave for Goteburg. So the Swedish road trip began! I was so tired I don't remember much from the first night in Sweden.

 I think I must have collapsed into a light coma until the next morning. We arrived at the studio of amazing director Patric Ullaes at 10am.

It was a long day of hot lights, tight clothes, sexy dancing, burly men borrowing my makeup, + of course hard core rock n roll! We were done much earlier than anticipated so I went out for cheese + wine with the boys later that night + got carried away.

Some of the most delicious red wine I've ever had. Needless to speak of, the next morning after three hours of sleep + a 7am wake up call, I felt horrible. Not only was I hung over + still jet lagged but I work up with a nasty cold. The second day was a very difficult work day. Shooting outdoors wearing clothing that was not nearly warm enough, + trying to look sexy while almost freezing.

 After my scenes were done, I fell asleep in the office for the rest of the day,  rock blaring + all. We drove back to Oslo that night.

The drive back seemed much more grueling than the way there, having to spend hours in a car is not very enjoyable when you're feeling like death. I spent the rest of my time in Oslo seeing some nature, old church ruins, + a little bit of the city.

 I had such a great time + met so many lovely people that I was very emotional about leaving. I broke down in Gardermoen airport + probably looked a bit crazy drinking my latte as my tears dripped into it.

One thing I love about travelling is all the wonderful airport comfort food. I have a major sweet tooth + there is never any shortage of muffins, smoothies, + lattes to drown my sorrows in. The food on the plane, however, is not so enjoyable. I have to say that Scandinavia was probably the most difficult time I've ever had during my travels as a vegetarian. At home I lead a mostly vegan lifestyle + can usually stick to a relatively low dairy veggie diet while away from home but I was lost while in Europe, it seemed so foreign to everyone I was around. Nonetheless, I had the most beautiful enlightening experience + plan to spend the month of June back in Norway. So get ready Oslo!

XOMH

P.S. More behind the scenes pictures to come...